Half Way Baby!

One of my news years resolutions was to do a full 90 days of P90X.  Because of this, I have a love hate relationship with Tony Horton.  It hasn't been tough mentally for the most part.  I want to lose the weight and finish this goal so much that it hasn't been a chore or a nuisance for me to do.  It is just part of my nightly routine, and something that needs to get done before bed.  It has been really challenging physically though. . .  I know what you're thinking.  Duh!  Of course it has been a physical challenge.  You're trying to accomplish a physical goal, so why would you think it was going to be easy?  I knew it wasn't going to be easy, but I didn't think I was SO out of shape that I felt like dying after I was done with each work out.  I decided at the beginning of this process that every Sunday I was going to get into my goal bikini and take a picture.  Trust me, those pictures are not for the faint of heart.  But it sure has motivated me to kick it up a notch so I don't look like that anymore.  I also take measurements.  I measure my waist, hips, and thighs.  I also weigh myself.  That way I can keep very close watch as to what is changing, and what needs more improvement and attention.  Again, it was not easy seeing those numbers the first week, but over the last 6 weeks it has improved and I am not so grossed out by my body.  Which I am counting as a win.  I have noticed a difference over the last 45 days.  There hasn't been a lot of pounds coming off, but there has been inches.  And inches is what is going to get me into a smaller pant size.  Would I like to see the number on the scale change more?  Sure.  But I am not going to complain if there is some kind of change happening.  All of the changes that have been  happening are not weight related either.  I am stronger too.  Things that I wasn't able to do 6 weeks ago are a little bit easier now.  I am not super strong, but I am stronger than I used to be.  And that is a big accomplishment.

The next 45 days will still be a challenge.  I will want to slack off and skip a day here and there, but slacking won't make me thinner.  Slacking won't help me lose 10 more pounds.  I am the only one that can push myself through the lazy thoughts.  I am the one that put on the weight, so I am the only one can do the work to take the weight back off. 

I know that I will accomplish my goal.  I AM motivated.  I AM strong.